As for really anyone else, the holidays were pretty rough calorically. I ate all the things. Even when I was trying not to eat all the things, I ate all the things.
With every cookie and bite of pasta I would simply remind myself, “it’s not forever”.
That’s where the holidays tend to get tricky. People keep reminding themselves that it’s not forever and that they can continue doing it until just after the celebrations are over. The problem is, the celebrations are rarely over.
There’s Thanksgiving, the winter holidays, New Year’s Eve, New Year’s Day, Valentine’s Day, Easter, 4th of July and in between all of those holidays are people’s birthdays. Rather than to treat those events as the special occasions they are, we choose to celebrate entire months!
Christmas is one day but you would never know it from the commercials that start in July and the decorations that go up just after kids go back to school in September. The advertising starts earlier and earlier every year and so does the eating.
I’m one of the worst offenders of this mentality. I eat the candy that is reserved for the trick or treaters, the pumpkin pie, the Christmas cookies, drink all of the wine and I wonder why I’m fat in January.
This year was no exception. I weighed in at a whoppin’ 142 pounds on December 29th which is 12 pounds higher than my goal weight. So naturally, I decided to take action in the only way I know how. I made my boyfriend throw away all of the junk food because I am a hoarder who can’t part with anything delicious, I cut out dairy, grains and refined sugar, and I started labeling myself as “paleo” and “whole30”.
I made cauliflower fried rice (delicious), chicken mole (also delicious), and wings (not delicious). I ate lots and lots of meat and vegetables and I even ate fruit which is something I usually avoid like the plague. I still drank non-paleo wine because, let’s be honest, I’m not Wonder Woman. I had more energy, my skin looked great, and I even lost three pounds.
But last night, after two weeks, I had a craving for pancakes that just wouldn’t go away. The planned meal was bison burgers but the thought of anything but syrupy goodness was actually kind of repulsive. I gave in, but in a way that was different to how I usually do.
I went to IHOP after calculating my calories and realized that I could fit exactly three chocolate chip pancakes (and syrup) into my daily calories. I decided to forget about my macros for the night and do some conditioning the next day to work it off instead.
I felt downright awful after eating the pancakes. I don’t mean guilty, because I was the happiest girl in the world. I had a horrible stomachache and a pounding headache that just wouldn’t go away.
While some of you are wondering, was it worth it then? I’ll tell you. Yes, dear reader, it was so worth it.
The difference is, it’s not worth it to do it all the time. The pancakes I ate last night were everything I ever wanted from food because I had waited so long for them.
Today I’m back to my green tea, fruits and vegetables, and my bison burgers.